This week was a rollercoaster. I've never prayed so much, worried so much, or tried so much on my mission. This was hands down the hardest week of my mission. I don't know why, especially because I had the absolutely amazing experience of going to the temple (which was the best Temple session of my life.. I have never been flooded with so much inspiration and help.. SO cool) but for some reason, even the next day. I just stressed. I've spent hours calling TU's, swinging by people, looking in the Area book, knocking doors, and trying to visit members. But I just don't see how I can accomplish everything Preach My Gospel wants me to. We just started Weekly Planning and we couldn't finish because it just overwhelmed us. How do I keep contact with every person, every week, when not one person is making us a priority in their lives? It just seems I'm trying so hard, and nothing is coming out.
But I know it takes faith, dedication, and perseverance. I've listened, studied and read several inspiring Gospel talks and the scriptures to help me push a long.
Judges 6:13 Gideon has to go against the Midianites. An impossible task. They are in bondage, and it does not look possible for them. ''Oh my Lord, if the Lord be with us, why then is all this befallen us? and where be all his miracles which our fathers told us of, saying, Did not the Lord bring us up from Egypt? but now the Lord hath forsaken us, and delivered us into the hands of the Midianites.''Kind of what I feel this week.. he has told us.. then why is it so hard for the members right now? Why is it so hard to go on? It seems every possible problem that could have happened has.
But it doesn't end there! Gideon says okay, and he gathers 32,000 men. They apparently are not worthy, or God is trying Gideon, and he tells whoever is afraid to go home. 10,000. He tests them again and only 300 remain. This story could not have hit more home to me. In Joseph Smith's words, ''How long O Lord, How long?''
But with inspired goals being reached, with inspiring scriptures, members, missionaries, I see the vision. You read the end to every one of those stories.. they ALL make it and accomplish what they needed to. I hold on to that and I continue to work.. for something. What will happen, I don't know.. but it will come.
We do keep having inspiring experiences where we'll run into someone who just needed help, and we'll be there to carry something in for them. We'll find a family who is super interested, God's giving us just enough.. to keep on keeping on.
-Äldste Sargent
But I know it takes faith, dedication, and perseverance. I've listened, studied and read several inspiring Gospel talks and the scriptures to help me push a long.
Judges 6:13 Gideon has to go against the Midianites. An impossible task. They are in bondage, and it does not look possible for them. ''Oh my Lord, if the Lord be with us, why then is all this befallen us? and where be all his miracles which our fathers told us of, saying, Did not the Lord bring us up from Egypt? but now the Lord hath forsaken us, and delivered us into the hands of the Midianites.''Kind of what I feel this week.. he has told us.. then why is it so hard for the members right now? Why is it so hard to go on? It seems every possible problem that could have happened has.
But it doesn't end there! Gideon says okay, and he gathers 32,000 men. They apparently are not worthy, or God is trying Gideon, and he tells whoever is afraid to go home. 10,000. He tests them again and only 300 remain. This story could not have hit more home to me. In Joseph Smith's words, ''How long O Lord, How long?''
But with inspired goals being reached, with inspiring scriptures, members, missionaries, I see the vision. You read the end to every one of those stories.. they ALL make it and accomplish what they needed to. I hold on to that and I continue to work.. for something. What will happen, I don't know.. but it will come.
We do keep having inspiring experiences where we'll run into someone who just needed help, and we'll be there to carry something in for them. We'll find a family who is super interested, God's giving us just enough.. to keep on keeping on.
-Äldste Sargent